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Vol. 1 / Issue 46 / June 4 1998

Contents of this issue

EDITORIAL

Reached to the Destination



News Items (Common to all issues) :

Standing in the Gap - Fasting prayer on 8th Dec.. 2015

Download Articles in Handheld Computers

Please Join us in "Peace Prayer Room"

Your Spam Folder

Hindi / Malayalam/Tamil Bible Online

Through the Valley of Death

Free Tutorials for your Kids!

Allah and Elohim - Are they the same God? Book

Free E-Cards

Online Games for you!



EDITORIAL

The Bible says in Gen 26:24 & Isa. 43:5, "Fear not for I am with you." Why does fear come? The Bible says in 1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love." We are afraid because of our imperfect love towards God. The Bible says in Gen 3:9-10 "Then the LORD God called to Adam and said to him, 'Where are you?' So he said, 'I heard Your voice in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; and I hid myself.' " Adam was afraid because he sinned against God, he disobeyed God. And because of fear he hid himself. But Jesus showed the perfect love on the cross to save us from our sins and our fears.

His love casts out fear. When we look to God and trust on Him, He not only removes the fear of mind but He gives the perfect peace as the Bible says in Isa 26:3-4 "You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You. Trust in the LORD forever, For in YAH, the LORD, is everlasting strength."

In this issue read the testimony of Sis. Jenn who was in the Mormon Church but turned to Christ and healed in soul, mind and body and restored her marriage life.

If you have any prayer request please feel free to send it to us. We will pray for you. Please note that our web page address is changed to: http://www.InSearchOfPeace.org or just click on this hyperlink In Search of Peace Magazine



Reached to the Destination

By Jenn

I was raised in the LDS(Mormon) Church. My parents have been active in the Church for a long time(since the late 1960's). And still are. My Dad is a Sunday School President. I used to be very active in the LDS(Mormon) Church, and held callings such as Laurels President, Sunday school teacher, subbing for Primary, and Relief Society teacher, just to name a few.

When I was a teenager, I thought the Church was true, but I did not like going, I didn't like "Young Womens" very much, because I had no friends in my ward, and hardly anyone would speak to me. I had very low self esteem, and was very shy from childhood up until I graduated from High School. I didn't feel very comfortable in my ward. But I still went because I thought the Church was true. And I read the Book Of Mormon (BOM) every morning after I woke up. And I thought I knew it pretty well. I know that God was with me a lot when I was growing up, because He told me of some things that the LDS Church taught against, although some of it I didn't realize at the time until now. I had small doubts growing up that didn't make sense to me then, but do now. Such as, I never thought there was anything wrong with the cross. I always believed Jesus paid for my sins on the cross. I didn't think there was anything wrong with wearing a cross either, and really wanted a cross necklace, but never did wear one (until now) because my parents said it was wrong, and that Christian's worshipped Jesus' death on the cross. I never realized that LDS taught that Jesus paid for our sins in the Garden of Gethsemene until I looked into LDS Doctrine.

Another one was at times I felt I wasn't worthy, and that I would never be with God because I kept making so many mistakes. But there were times when I felt like this, that the Holy Spirit would tell me, " You will live with me someday." And I would think to myself....."How? I am not perfect, and I don't think I can ever be perfect. Life is just to hard." It didn't make sense to me then, but it does now.

My Husband(John) started having doubts about the Church over a year and a half ago. He was teaching the 11 year old boys about the BOM. John started doubting if what he was teaching them about the BOM was true. He stopped going to Church. And it really bothered me. I loved John so much, but I was afraid that we wouldn't be together forever, although I had doubts also at the time. And I did think of leaving him. The Bishop called him in, wondering why John wasn't showing up at Church. John told him he had doubts. The Bishop told John to go up in the mountains, take his BOM, and pray about if the BOM was true or not. And that he knew that if John did, God would show Him the truthfulness of the Church. But John didn't. He didn't know where to search for the truth. He didn't even know if the BOM was true, he didn't know what he could trust. At one time, the Bishop also told John that our two little boys needed to see "their Daddy" going to Church.

Meanwhile, my doubts had started two years ago, when my boys and I got sick for months. We had several Priesthood blessings saying we would be healed soon. But soon never seemed to come. I felt that God had abandoned me and my boys. I was angry at God, and I even started to doubt if there was a God.... I fell into a deep depression. I just wanted to die, so I went on medication. I thought about suicide a few times, and how I would do it, but knew I could never go through with it. I felt that I wasn't worth anything. After awhile a lot of the doubts went away. John had stopped going to Church, and I was hurt. I wanted him to go with me, and the boys, even though the boys and I hardly ever went. But John had no desire to go. But sometimes he would go with me to help with the boys, because I had some health problems. But we had some marriage problems, a lot of it because of my depression.

About 6 months after that, John and I went to the library. John borrowed an anti-Mormon book, called the Godmakers. I was kind of embarrassed about it, because living in Utah their are a lot of Mormons. And I thought one of them would see us borrowing this book. Well, John started reading it. He told me a little of what it said. I didn't know whether to believe it or not, so we decided to check it out for ourselves. And were shocked to find a lot of it was in Mormon-approved books!! Such as Journal of Discourses, and History of The Church......even inconsistencies in the Doc. and Cov. and BOM. We searched even more.... becoming more devastated and shocked as we searched. Mormonism had been our life! And now it had been shattered. I felt that my world was coming apart, that I was living in a nightmare. I just wanted to wake up. I felt betrayed, and raped.

Well, my parents found out that we had been reading anti-Mormon literature (my brother had told them), and were very upset. They blamed John for my doubts, because he brought home an anti-Mormon book, even though my doubts were different from his. I doubted the Church, John started doubting Christianity in general. I do know now that the LDS Church is not a true Church. We haven't asked to have our names to be removed from the records. We don't think it really matters. Because now we belong to Jesus. After we found out all this stuff about the Church, we were very angry , hurt, and bitter. We wanted to know where we were supposed to go. We were afraid to trust anyone. We had been deceived and were afraid we would be deceived again. We felt alone. We didn't want anyone to know about our doubts. We were very scared. And felt very guilty. Afraid that people could see on our faces that we didn't believe in the Church anymore. John knew a Pastor's son, so he talked me in to going to this Assemblies of God Church. When we got there, I almost backed out. I was afraid everyone would know we were Mormon. But we went inside. And after about 10 minutes I felt more comfortable. The way they praised seemed so right! We could feel the Spirit so strong, and I cried. I felt that this is where God wanted us to be. But I still had doubts a lot. So did John. We still weren't sure what God wanted us to do.

But then one Sunday, John saw something in the Church announcements. There was an announcement for a Marriage Encounter Weekend, for couples who had a good marriage but wanted to make it better. The Holy Spirit told John that we needed to go. So we went. Something happened while we were there. Something wonderful!! We learned that we needed God to be one with us in our marriage and one with Him personally. We felt God's Love for us so strong. That it consumed us to the point where all the anger, hurt, depression, bitterness and guilt were washed away by Jesus' love for us!! Our marriage was healed, and we were filled with so much Joy and Peace!! And God filled us with knowledge of Him. He answered some questions, through His Spirit, that I had for years! It was Awesome! God told me that there was no "one true religion". That I needed to go where I could draw closer to Him, where I could Worship Him the way I needed too. I accepted Christ in my life and He gave me so much Love and Peace that day! It was the greatest experience I have ever had with God!! I had a greater love for my children, my family, and John's family, it was so Awesome! So Heavenly! I knew I was accepted by God! We were turned to Jesus!! We will never forget the day that happened - on Oct. 18, 1997. Since then, it has been very painful, but also joyful in a lot of ways.

My family still puts the pressure on me to come back to the LDS Church. They were taught in the Temple not many years ago, that Christian Churches are of the devil. That the Pastors are paid by Satan Himself. They were taught in Church that John and I are not going to Heaven. That we will lose our children for Eternity and that they will be given to another couple who are exalted to Godhood. I know this is hurting my family and John's family very much. My parents blame John for my not believing in the LDS Church anymore, even though it isn't his fault. My Mom has accused me of being "brainwashed", but neither of our parents have disowned us. But I need to do what God wants me to do, and not what so- called Prophets, or leaders tell me I need to do. God says to not trust in the arm of flesh, but to trust in Him alone to lead the way (Jer. 17:5, Psalms 4:5). And that is exactly what I am doing. The pain of leaving is unbearable at times, but God is with me, I know He is. He is my strength and is the only way I can get thru all of this. God says in Galations 5:22-23, "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law." This is why I know God is with me, He has given me of His unspeakable love, joy, and peace, and many more things.

The LDS Church could not satisfy me because of the inconsistencies with the Church doctrine, but that was only part of it. What really got me to think of leaving was that I felt spiritually unfulfilled in the LDS Church. I didn't feel like I could be close to God there. I had tried, but had failed. I had stopped learning and growing spiritually in the LDS Church. I know that I need to Worship God the way Christian churches worship God. It helps my love for Him to grow! And helps me to draw close to Him! It fills me with so much Joy and Love, and Peace that is so unspeakable!! I can't describe it. I need God in my life, and I know the only way I can be close to Him is thru worshipping Him thru music and prayer. My relationship with Jesus is so wonderful! I never knew that I could be this happy! I feel God working in my life now! He is real to me now more then ever! My faith in God is a lot stronger! And I know I am one with Him and one with John in our marriage and also in my personal relationship with Jesus. My Love for Him has grown.

We are now trying to help others like ourselves who are coming out of Mormonism. We feel that people like this need the emotional and spiritual support. We want people to know, there is happiness, after leaving the Mormon Church. And that God does love each and every one of them, that His love is totally unconditional. We feel we know now who God is, and that His love for each and every one of us is unconditional, no matter what we do, He still loves us! . And wants to change our lives, washing our sins through His precious blood. He is definitely an Awesome God!!




Standing in the Gap - Fasting prayer on 8th Dec.. 2015

As the Bible says in Ezekiel 22:30 "So I sought for a man among them who would make a wall, and stand in the gap before Me on behalf of the land, that I should not destroy it." And also the Bible says in Numbers 16:48, "And he (Aaron) stood between the dead and the living; so the plague was stopped." We have fasting prayer every second Tuesday of each month. Our next fasting prayer meeting will be conducted on 16th Nov. 2015

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Through the Valley of Death

As many of you know that in the year 2005, our dad was very sick even unto death. God miraculously healed him. We have compiled it in a book form. I sure believe that it will inspire you and encourage you greatly.

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Allah and Elohim - Are they the same God? Book

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